Trakkur's Diary

I’m not one for making daily entries to a blog or diary, but I’ll do my best. This will be my way of remembering the past and how far I’ve come in PE.

The Beginning: My humble beginnings on Calypso started 12-20-04 (If memory serves) in Cape Corinth with the usual trappings of a newcomer - Ie. Nothing except orange clothing and the will to learn and succeed.

To say my early days were exciting and confusing would be an understatement. I had read a lot about how PE worked and all the guides I could find..but hadn’t joined any forums yet (Where the REAL good information is found) so things were very hard. I quickly learned after talking to a few people and getting some questions answered (Plus receiving a few free items for simply asking about PE stuff), that deposits while not strictly required would make life much easier to start. Case in point, my mentor (Someone that latched on to me realy quickly and helped a good deal) gave me a Mann MPH handgun and someone else I had spoken with gave me 100 rounds of ammo for the gun - but I had no armor and knew nothing about Sweating (Tricks and techniques) or even what mobs to hunt.

I wandered around and tried a few mobs near Corinth. Nothing much really, Sabakumas, some Atrox (I think they were Guardians) and a huge mob I hadn’t heard about called a Longu Provider. Well you can guess how THAT turned out! I quickly realized I was NOT being bright, and worse yet stupid.

More research ensued, exploration of Calypso and the internet gave me some nice mobs to hunt, and moved me around the world collecting TPs (Thank GOD for internet maps!) I made a small $10 deposit and bought some TT armor (Remember I was new and had NO clue really) then went hunting Snables, Snarks and Plums mostly. I didn’t have much success, but realized I loved the game and simply HAD to deposit more for better gear. I talked my wife into letting me deposit $40 more and got some Pixie armor to complete the set (After some Snables had given me some parts already) and really started hunting. In those days I used the Pixie armor with Mann MPH and a Jester D1…not knowing about 1x0 axes or melee beyond (To me) high end expensive swords which I couldn’t afford.

A trip to get some TPs in one area led me to one of my first true friends in PE - Andova Andie Wise. I happened across her doing some mining and was curious. She gratiously explained how mining worked, and even gave me a few pointers and offered to take me mining. After directing me to a nearby TP I was looking for she did something that shaped my future in PE - she handed me a fully repaired RepEdge 1x0 axe! Well I VERY quickly learned they were one of, if not THE, most cost efficient weapons in the game. Soon after I acquired several more, thanks to my Mentor, at a good rate and was OFF to the races!

Along the way I met another person that took me along on a high-end mob hunting trip with them in my first team hunt..and even split the loot with me evenly. Of course my pixie armor with MPH and Jester D1 woudl be no help for Atrox/Atrax so this person gave me their EP-40 Mercenary, an A106 amplifier and a GOOD amount of ammo for the gun - so I could help them slaughter Atrox. It was GREAT fun, but sadly we never really got anything nice…this person even let me KEEP the EP-40 Merc and Amp! Sadly soon after this person stopped really playing very much. I’ve seen them from time to time in the months to follow and hope they realize how much I appreciate their kindness. (Sadly their name escapes my sleep deprived brain right now, but I’ll edit once I get home and check my FL)

Around this time I hit my first hunting global, 52 PED off a Snablesnot Young Male and was completely and totally hooked! I was in for $50 USD total deposits by now and had (In my young mind.) a good collection of gear - Pixie Armor, some Goblin, Jester D1, Mann MPH, about 7-9 1x0 axes, and more importantly some very good friends. Well as the fates will always do my luck turned bad and I quickly started to bleed PEDs, not necessarily due to bad loot - but more likely my bad knowledge of the RIGHT things to hunt and how to efficiently use my weapons. I had been hunting Cornundos and Molisk near the crashed spaceship south of Camp Phoenix and doing fairly good..but not good enough. It’s not that I squandered any PEDs (I’m a miser really) but rather that I had hunted over my head (Thanks to the EP-40 and A106) and got no loot to show for the time spent. I had sold the EP-40 and A106 amp in an effort to stay afloat without another deposit…but sadly this didn’t work.

I agonized for a few hours over making another deposit (After trying to get my wife’s agreement) or simply turning to sweating to boost my Mindforce skill and try to earn some PEDs for trading. In the end I made another $50USD deposit and repaired my stuff, rearmed and went back to hunting. 10 minutes later I saw staring at my screen and doing my level-best to not scream out load at the top of my lungs (It was 3am EST and my wife and daughter were asleep) - I had killed a Cornundos Mature and looted a 717PED HoF! (My first!) with some REALLY nice items including a FF8kM (That I later sold for +350) Justifier MK1, Z1001 pistol and other stuff with 500 peds! I was bouncing off the walls and had to actually head outside to jump around and scream a little - albeit somewhat subdued since I didn’t want to wake my neighbors and bring the police! :laugh:

Well after that things moved rapidly, I bought full Rascal Armor - had 12 - 1x0 axes, plenty of ammo (Even though my gun usage is simply a backup - since I’m a melee hunter first and foremost.) PLUS I had found my perfect mob for skilling - Cornundacauda Youngs on the beach north of Fort Argus.

Sure I hunted other mobs, mainly to explore new areas, and had already found Bercyleds near Port Atlantis - and had my Cornundos and Molisk which still looted for me well (But only at very specific times of the day) - but here was a mob VERY well suited to my Rascal Armor, axes and skilled GREAT!

2.5 Months later, several globals (Including my first mining of 55ped) and nice item loots (But no Nemesis parts or HoFs) I had grown in Longblade skill to over 2k (Along with other skills) and was having a BLAST! I had a society I had joined a while back (nAn - nothing AND nowhere) that quickly became GREAT friends, and I was more importantly having a BLAST!

Fast forward to present day (Mostly so I don’t have to hear your snoring any more :laugh: ):

I’m $300 USD into PE so far, and haven’t made a deposit in just over 2 months (A fact of which I’m VERY proud) - Have a great group of friends, and an awesome society. Item wise I feel I’ve grown considerably since those early days. True my Jester D1 is still a part of my use, as well as my Rascal armor and 1x0 axes..but they have been joined by a Kangoo (Gifted by a close friend), MF-105 (Same friend- For my Disciple graduating gift - Thanks again Andova!), Katsuichi Honor, Marber Bravo-Type Plasma rifle, Full goblin, Mostly full Pixie (never finished recollecting the parts after selling it RIGHT before my HoF and getting my Rascal armor) - and many other items I borrow from friends on occasion (Thunderbird armor! ME Whip, Nemesis Armor, etc.)

I’ve been fortunate in my loots over the months (Mainly the past 2 months) - In addition to the 717ped Hunting HoF and 55ped Mining Global already mentioned I’ve gotten 16 Hunting Globals (2 in team with Socmates - plus one I helped get even though I wasn’t a teammember at the time.), my 1st, and only so far, mining HoF of 337 Ped worth of Oil (Extremely Large deposit) – Thanks to socmate Hawk for running out his MD102 and several other TT extractors so I could pull it all up, 13 GSIs, a table, Viking Armor helmet, and other stuff. Plus I’ve actually become less of a miser recently, getting a medium sized apartment, new weapons (The Marber Bravo),full 4C Armor plates - plus most recently CLOTHES! Urban Nomad Black Jumper and Slacks, plus a Rancher hat, hobb Bomberjacket and Reilly boots made from Cornundacauda Leather - tailored and colored purple last night by the amazing tailor Pieces. So things in PE are looking up for sure! I’m even far ahead basde upon my RL deposits. If I was to sell out now (No a chance in hell!) and liquidate JUST my inventory and MAYBE get Market prices for it all I’d be ahead near $150 - and that doesn’t even include skills (Over 3.4k longblade and several others over 1k, 2k and 3k.)

BUT more to me then anything else is the fact that I have some dear friends in PE that I treasure. You folks ARE what make PE so great, all the uber armor, clothes and weapons - while they would be nice, and I still want (Hint: Ghoul Armor, Justifier MKII, Ambulimax Master Coat and Linestrip Shades for starters!) - I would trade EVERYTHING away and be a complete and total PEDless pauper if I had to choose between my stuff or you folks.

Look for updates to this dairy (I’ll try to keep the sappy stuff to a minimum) on a semi-regular basis.

Take care!

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Trakkur’s Diary: 6-21-05 Entry

Today I went on my first full hunt with my new set of Armor Plating Mark 4C.

I attached them to my Rascal Armor and went out to the Limnadian District area for Allophyls and Estophyls, with the occasional Molisk (More then I liked actually) to see how they performed.

In the end I had two hunts during which I suffered minor losses..not due to the additional cost of the Plate decay (Which was still FAR less with Rascal and FAP decay then if I had used the Thunderbird armor I’m borrowing), but rather due to the crappy loots. I had many no loots or very low loots..no items other then some wool types, molisk teeth and some skins. The high loot was 11ped. The losses were small enough to not really concern me, I’m new to allos/estos really and just need to approach hunting them more efficiently - I still don’t use my guns efficiently.

The only other thing of note for the day was earlier I had completed a hunt and T’d back to repair and rearm before heading back out…when I arrived at the RT I wasn’t standing in the building by the RT but instead on TOP of the building! :laugh:

I just couldn’t help myself, staring at that blank canvas on top of the building I just HAD to indulge in my first PECart. Nothing at all fancy, since I’m not THAT creative.

Take a peak! Maybe I’ll find a way to make that my signature file.

https://www.planetcalypsoforum.com/gallery/files/9/7/2/PECArtbyTrakkur_thumb.jpg[size=1][br]Click to enlarge[/br][/size]

Take care!

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Trakkur’s Diary: 6-22-05

Well as fate would have it I didn’t play any PE last night, got home from work (After a very hard day) and mowed the lawn and cleaned up a bit before getting to bed at 10pm. Very early for me, but I was exhausted. I don’t think I’ll get much in-game time tonight (Maybe an hour or 2) since I need to get up at 6:30am so I can get to an important early morning meeting with my banker.

Once that meeting is finished I’ll have money in-hand for home improvements at our house (RL one!) and some money left over for my NEW PC! Yeah, I’ll finally have the cash on hand (Wife the all important wife’s approval and blessing) to get the last few parts I need for my new PC. :smiley: I can’t wait, 3.4ghz processer, 2gb memory, 256mb high-end video card, a few (Probably 4) 80gb 10kRPM SATA drives, high-end sound card, DVD Burner to go with the fancy high-end cooling case, 56x CDRW, Wireless Keyboard and Mouse (Optical as well) and 21inch monitor I already have…Ah! :tongue2: I can’t wait!

Of course I’ll HAVE to wait another week until a computer show comes near enough to my house. Or just bite the bullet and buy from stores or eBay.

Oh well, PE-wise I got about 20 mins in-game this morning before racing off to work..1 axe down hunting Argonauts and already a profit. Maybe I’ll get more tonight - IF I get game time.

Later!

Trakkur’s Diary: 6-23-05

Well, first off I’m adding a new feature to my dairy - the daily (Or semi-daily) Trakkur Mood-O-Meter.

Today’s Mood-O-Meter: Cranky and disappointed.

My current mood has nothing to do with PE really, last night I had a good night hunting in Argonauts - 2 back-to-back hunts I looted very well..about 60ped total profit (Plus items) and the third hunt which I never finished was headed to a break-even or very small loss. High loot was 30+ped.

I’m cranky and a bit disappointed because my wife seems to be renegging on an agreement we had to give me the money to get the parts for our new PC. Which was in fact my father’s day gift this year. Well!!! I got the entire computer widow speech last night along with a rash of other garbage and the end result was I know there is NO way I’m getting the cash for the show which is in fact THIS weekend!!! :mad: What maeks this worse is that this has happened 3 times now, and I even have many parts already sitting in my closet waiting for the final ones (CPU, Memory, Hard Drives, etc.) so I guess I’ll be selling them on eBay now - and putting the money right into PE..no way she gets it. :mad:

So no new machine for me, which means the current one has to work for as long as it can…and there is NO way I’m going to do any maintenance on it to try and piece it back together or improve it. You can’t shove 10lbs. of bologna into a 5lb bag. :wise:

SOOOooo, that’s my story today - what’s yours?

Today’s Mood-O-Meter: Cautiously Optomistic

It would seem my wife STILL wishes me to purchase the computer parts to finish our new machine. :slight_smile: Looks like I’ll be heading out to the show this weekend after all, most likely with $1100-1200 dollars in my pocket. I’m hoping I can get the parts I need for around $900 to finish the machine. I bet you can guess where the remaining $200-300 will be going? :tongue2: Yup, probably into a better part! Or at worst into PE! I simply HAVE to get my Ghoul armor. :cool:

PEwise I had a good night last night, my beloved Argonauts yielded 2 hunts that only had minor losses..very minor. Then after a brief run of armor crafting (During which I got no BPs, but had good success and decent skill gains) I headed out to Allophyls on Amethera (Old-Guardian and Provider) and killed 5 Allophyls before heading to sleep 2 no loots - a 2+pedder, a 9+pedder and the last that gave me 25ped and an EP-13 Galactica. Combined with the items they dropped a 30+ped profit for a VERY short run..damn shame I couldn’t keep my eyes open for a more lengthy hunt.

Oh well, there’s always tonight!

I don’t imagine I’ll be around all THAT much this weekend, I’ve got a picnic/party Saturday afternoon, some landscaping work to do around our house, then of course the new machine to assemble and begin burn testing. Wheeeee! I can’t wait!

Later!

Trakkur’s Diary - 6-30-05 Entry

Well It’s been near a week since my last entry, things have been that hectic in my life.

Mood-O-Meter: Happy but tired.

I’m finally back at work after a 3 day sick time leave for a badly sprained right ankle. No clue what I did but Friday morning I woke up with a sore ankle with a yellowish-green discoloration from the top of the ankle bone (Where there was a painful lump) down the right above the foot where it ended in a nice purple-black bruise about 2 inches long and 1/2 inch wide. Very nasty looking…the doctors at the emergency room say it’s a very bad sprain or tear of a ligament/tendon/muscle (They don’t know for sure.) that may have ruptured (Hence explaining the purple-black bruise which is in fact pooled up blood. :eek:

So I’m in a soft cast and had to stay off it for 3 days (I took 5) with very minimal movement with the help of crutches.

I’m NOT happy about it, since the 4th of July picnic is coming and I’ll have to sit out the annual volleyball tournament this time…dang it! :mad: Well, at least that means I can eat and drink more! Pass me a beer someone! :laugh:

PE-wise I borrowed a friend’s Nemesis armor, Maddox IV and Cause Amp and I’ve been running around slaying Atrax/Atrox/Large Daikiba and basically anything big and nasty that would have normally eaten my Rascal armored self. :wink: Loot wise it’s been rather sparse, mostly since my play time has been limited (Damn foot hurts if I sit at the PC without it up..and the way my desk is situated I can’t keep it up in front of me..so it’s rather uncomfortable sitting twisted to the side. Some low level guns looted, a GSI, but no globals or anything of real note..I’m down maybe 150 ped in the past week..but thankfully last night and the night before I turned in break-even runs..so the luck might be turning

In another personal note I got the parts for my new machine!!! :smiley: Yup! I hobbled to the computer show this past Sunday..crutches and all and got everything I needed.

It’s assembled now, sitting on our dining room table while I load software and drivers. I’ll do a burn-in test for a couple more days before I get it online and situated in our desk.

Here’s what I finally got:

Thermaltake Xaser III case (Tower, 7 case fans, temp control alarm,etc.)
Antex True 550w Power Supply
SOYO PY-P4I875P Dragon 2 Platinum motherbaord
Intel P4 3.0E CPU (3 ghz)
1gb Kingston DDR400 Dual Channel Memory
ATI Radeon X800XL 256mb Graphics Card
SoundBlaster Audigy2 ZS Gamer Edition sound card
160gb SATA150 Seagate Barracuda 7200rpm Hard Drive
ThermalTake Spark7+ CPU Fan & HeatSink
Lite-On DVD write/reader/Rewriter
Memorex CDRW 52x24x52
Running Windows XP Professional with Service Pack 2.

So far all I’ve managed to get done is all of the hardware installed and tested..OS installed and the updated Motherbaord drivers along with the Soudn and Video card drivers. Tonight I’ll do some testing to make sure everything is working as expected (The sound card is at least) - Run some DVDs, install a game or two to make sure it works..then commence the installation and testing of other games and programs.

So far the machine is FAST ! It gets past the post screen stuff and into windows loading before the monitor is even caught up! :cool: Windows loads and shutsdown really fast now..heck anything I’ve done so far is very quick.

Hopefully I’ll be able to get it online soon and get PE installed…I sure hope it works!

Take care!

Trakkur’s Diary - 7-6-05 Entry

Whoooo! The new PC setup is AWESOME!

I got everything installed over the weekend and into my desk, online and all. PE took FOREVER to download but it runs VERY good!

I can see the waving trees now, all the wind effects, and have absolutely NO lag at all…none. Zero, zip, zilch, nada. :cool: Even with a collection of over 20 mobs all milling around me and other hunters in the area as well. No lag at all! :eek:

I’m VERY happy. :smiley:

PE-Wise I got my first global in two weeks this morning, 63ped off an Argonaut Scavenger, with 35 Fine Wool, a Medium Nerve Blast Chip and 37ped. Made my day, I thought for sure my globalling days were over. Thanks MA!

My right ankle is still messed up, no cast just bandaged still, using crutches. I probably did too much on it this weekend since it hurt yesterday and today…but I’ll sit with it up tonight while I play games and watch TV. Of course now my lower back and left leg are starting to hurt..probably since I’m favoring the injured ankle and walking funny. Damn it! :mad:

Oh well, that’s my life now…how’s yours?

Trakkur’s Diary - 7-13-05 Entry

Current Mood-O-Meter: :mad: :cussing:

Ok, this has to go down as probably the worst day of the year so far for me.

My job sucks, big time sucks…I get constantly hounded to do stuff, and redo it over and over again when people have forgotten to do the right things or anything at all and then at the last minute (After I’ve already completed a process) give me something that causes me to start ALL over again!

Well this has been going on for a long time, and of course we all know what happens when you either try to do too many things at once, or have to redo something…you make mistakes.

I’ve made a few recently and now my freaking boss has actually put me up on a Performance notice..and has involved our HR department informally…kind of like a probationary phase before formal disciplinary action is taken. I cant’ freaking believe it!! I’ve busted my ass here for 4.5 years, and without me there is NO way they could have done half of what we’ve done…I work totally messed up hours, some weekends, and literally ANY hour of the day..barely any lunches, they bitch when I ask to take any time off…and THIS is the result?!? :mad: :cussing:

I’m totally pissed…so mad that tonight will probably be the first time since I started playing PE that I actually go into a PvP area LOOKING for trouble.

Whoa be unto anyone that crosses me IRL or in-game tonight. GRRRR!

PE-Wise my professional ranking seems to be messed up somehow…far too low, but who knows with how secondary skills rise slower now anything is possible. One bright note I did get a GSI last night, and some decent loot otherwise.

Oh well, I’m off to try and find a way to vent before I do something stupid.

ROFLMAO!

I just had a VERY late lunch, guess what the chinese fortune cookie had to say?

Good things are being said about you. :slight_smile:

Given the context of my previous entry today I HIGHLY doubt that! The fortune cookie MUST die now!

The next cookie had THIS to say! Good god ! Is someone trying to TELL me something or what?!?

Your luck has been completely changed today.

Trakkur’s Diary - 7-15-05 Entry

Current Mood-O-Meter: Hungry, aggravated and depressed.

Yeah, not much better then a few days ago. :frowning:

Right now my brand new fancy, super fast gaming PC at home is in storage while the renovations on my house continue. Far too much dust and shit all over (And in the air) to have it setup anywhere.

It’s 3 days now since I unplugged everything and prepared for the construction crew..and all I have to show for those days is a huge hole in my back wall, and TONS of freaking concrete dust ALL over the damn place! It even got around the plastic sheets and permeated into my kitchen and living room..thankfully the living room wasn’t AS bad, but the kitchen…Gah! Horrible.

I estimate another 2-3 days before we get the rooms completely cleaned and the door installed, then I need to build my new computer desk and setup everything back up again. ARGH! Man this sucks.

At least when I was on vacation for 10 days back in February I had no CHANCE to access PE of the forums..but this, being able to see it, read about it..but not play?!? Maddening.

And what’s worse all I get to do it work and clean. :frowning:

Oh well, hopefully this will make my wife happy..we’ve wanted this sliding glass door and patio for a LONG time.

Take care!

Trakkur’s Diary - 7-18-05 Entry

Mood-O-Meter: Cautiously happy.

As luck would have it our sliding glass door was installed this past Saturday after a nearly 8 hour job..and it looks AMAZING! I’ll be posting some pictures once I get a chance later on this week.

Of course it still needs to be painted since 1/4 of the room has new sheetrock up, but just having the big open glass door and a new computer desk (With a nice roomy open desktop) makes the room look SOOOO much better.

Of course there are some minor issues to work out still, security light and bars for the door, plus a little modification to the desk to accomodate my pc and allow for better airflow to it through the desk, but so far it’s VERY nice. Sure the chair isn’t QUITE right, but it is damn comfortable and I’m sure my wife will figure out a way to make it work in the room.

So the end result was just over 5 days of withdrawal pain from PE and my computer in general. :laugh:

Assuming I don’t collapse from exhaustion tonight after getting home from a long work day I should get my first PE fix in 5 days tonight. Wheee! :smiley:

I’ll probably spend most of it frozen in one place trying to sell some excess gear in my storage so I can go on an extended mining trip…or maybe buy that Nemesis armor. All depends upon my mood, right now I feel a bit like mining.

See ya!

Trakkur’s Diary - 7-20-05 Entry

Mood-O-Meter: Frustrated

Bah! My stupid boss actually had the gall to put me on a performance improvement plan for the next 45 days..the last step before formal action. Good freaking god! Doesn’t he realize without me they would have a really hard time getting half the work done that we do?!? Bah! :mad: I wonder if McDonald’s is hiring :lol:

Well, on a positive note my desk has been modified to allow for better air flow to the new pc and it’s running perfectly..the normal temps even went down a few degrees…sweet! Not to mention it’s far easier to work with the case now should I need to get into it for some reason…like I did last night when I discovered that one of my hard drives had some sort of catastrophic error and lost a good amount of files…of course most of them our pictures for the past year or so. :mad: :frowning:

Now I have to try and find a REALLY good data recovery tool to try and get back everything I can…now. :frowning: This was the topper on a really terrible day yesterday.

Of course there is no better way to cheer someone up then to pour salt into fresh wounds..and my wife is a master at this, which she demonstrated yet again last night when she screamed and raged at me over this data loss…which she doesn’t even understand and can’t possibly comprehend that I couldn’t have done myself…when I was at work and nowhere near the machine..yet she was there and trying to delete and move things. :mad: But does she realize this COULD have caused the problem? Nope.

Oh well!

At least PE was nice to me last night, I got a 94ped (All peds) global off my favorite argonaut youngs, and some decent loot along with it. And I crested 3200 Melee Combat and 3600 Longblade..maybe I’ll get some hidden skills soon…maybe.

Trakkur’s Diary - 7-28-05 Entry

Well my mood is currently : Guarded but still ticked off. :mad:

Since last I posted in my diary I’ve learned that I’m not the only person at work being targetted by management. There is something HUGE on the horizon in my organization and maybe the entire company. Seems we have a senior VP or something that is VERY high on out-sourcing. He gave a presentation recently about it and made some official posts. It looks like this guy would love to outsource much of our computing services and development jobs overseas to India or Pakistan.

Along with me there are a handful of other co-workers I’ve spoken with in the last 2-3 days that are also on Performance Improvement Plans, and the rumors are that those targetted will be the jobs that get outsourced first, maybe as a test or possibly permanently.

Part of me is really pissed off, but another side expected this since it happens everywhere in corporate America lately. I’d LOVE to see how it works in my particular situation..I’ll be sitting on the sidelines laughing my ass off the entire time as they try to make the vast time difference work in a Real Time delivery and Support system - Not to mention the distance factor. Of course there won’t be ANY language barrier since English speaking people are a minority in my group anyway, me included. One of the other folks on review has been here 10 years and is an integral part of our team - developing several major features - the other has been here 15 years. Hell they’ve already started some downsizing of the organization when they eliminated an entire 20 person organization a week ago the included 3 middle managers 16 regular employee (A few with decent service times) and a senior director with 26 years in the company.

The writing is most DEFINATELY on the wall now. Which sucks horribly since I HATE job searching. Hate it! :mad: :mad:

Of course one good thing did happen in the last week…my data loss I spoke of last time has been completely recovered. I bought a software package and it restored all of my lost files. Thank god! :smiley:

Oh well, I’m going to stop now before I start ranting about the job again.

See ya!

OH yeah, PE-wise nothing much has happened to me, my overall ped count has dropped a lot lately due to very bad loot runs, but 2 nights ago I had a 100+ped profit hunt (With 2 nice 44+ped minis - NO globals though) so things are looking up slightly. Time to sell some storage stuff from my horde to keep moving forward..and I crossed 3.7k in Longblade - but no MDA yet. :mad:

Later!

Trakkur’s Diary - 8-2-05 Entry

Current Mood-O-Meter: Shocked and amazed (Well not really)

Dateline: 8-2-05
Location: East Coast USA - Specifically my little corner of hell at the place called work.

I’m informed via a co-worker (Later confirmed by several other co-workers and an Executive Assistant) that my direct boss - the one that put me on Performance Review recently and is the leader of another HIGHLY dysfunctional team (More on this later) has actually been promoted to Director…after only being manager of this group for MAYBE 1.5 years.

Director! This guy is a complete and total boob! Zero people skills, even lower rating in actual writing skills (IE. Emails and reports) and his direct reports (From a team that handles a specific area of our software product) produce more errors and chaos then ALL other groups combined (Yet 2 of those members have received recieved Commendations and large Promotions of their own recently) and worse has NO clue how to talk to someone or deal with them on any kind of level.

I’m in total and utter shock. The ONLY good that could come from this is that he is now the same level (Or just below) as his boss and he MIGHT need to leave our organization as a result. Maybe, dear god please.

Oh well…I have no idea what else to say now. Words can’t express my shock and dismay at this recent outcome. I am truly speechless.

Trakkur’s Diary - Entry 8-19-05

Ok, I’ve been neglecting my diary…I’ll rectify that right now.

Let’s see - where to start.

Oh yeah, I’m 5 - that’s right 5 - ranks from 4000 in the Longblade skill. I’m also VERY close to Marksmanship I believe..if what I’m told is true (That you unlock MMS around 2k in either Handgun or Rifle or both combined) then I’m 42 ranks from doing that.

Also I unlocked MDA a week ago and have it up nearing 470 ranks now. :smiley:

So if all goes well and I can get 2 hours or so in-game tonight I SHOULD be able to reach 4k in longblade (Which might move me up to Proficient Swordsman Professional Standing – and put me within 2 steps of Great and the unlocking of Serendipity. Plus MMS should unlock as well.

Now I just need MA to give me some good loot to celebrate. I had 2 decent runs last night…where I was getting nice minis - 32ped and 22 respectively, plus a few more. However my hunting costs have increased slightly due to ammo burn and repairs as I chase MMS.

Still all in all things are going well.

See ya!

Trakkur’s Diary - 9-1-05 Entry

Bah! :mad:

I went to bed last night in a foul mood, and hoped this morning things would turn out better. Well they most DEFINATELY did not!

I got to work and learned three very bad things, 1) There are rumours of layoffs coming again 2) Several MORE people have left my group 3) A Senior VP was just FIRED for undisclosed reasons.

Add to that the fact that a close friend of mine is leaving PE, and I’m in a very somber and bad mood.

Damn! I hate when I get like this..I suppose I should go out and vent in some way, hit golf balls, batting cage, ride my bike..anything.

Gah! :mad: This sucks.

Of course I DID get a call from a recruiter on a job I was interested in, but missed it and had to call back, and had to leave THEM a message as well - so maybe things are looking up. I feel like if I don’t get out of this company soon the whole thing will come crashing down around me.

GOOD GOD! I just learned that the Layoffs are true as well, will start soon and will target those folks on Performance Improvement Plans first - Guess who THAT includes?!? MAN! What a day.

Trakkur’s FINAL Diary Entry

Well, the day has come.

I’m finished with Entropia Forums, you’re now reading my final post.

I don’t find this community helpful or understanding in any way. In fact I’m of the thinking that this is just another place for the elite (Or seemingly elite) to band together and bash on anyone with an opinion differing from their own.

I won’t go into the details here since I voiced my opinion too much already in a few threads on the topic, but to sum it up - a change in the VU was made that I (And a few others that spoke up, and others that have decided to support me privately but remain silent otherwise) find unacceptable. It negatively impacts my game play experience, so I posted about it.

What was the result? Curses, and general disdain from several forum users (Some of whom I used to consider friends). Sure some folks posted in my support, but they were of course ignored or bashed as well. Negative rep flew in all directions, and bad words were flung all around. In the end a thread was locked, and more importantly a voice was silenced.

Sure my one voice means nothing, but the general negative tone I’ve seen creep into this forum over the past few months has grown to a point that I simply can’t tolerate any longer. I will not be posting here any longer. I may lurk to possibly pick up any useful tidbits from time to time, but my participation here in these forums is at an end.

I will not tolerate being cursed at and generally belittled by anyone. There is absolutely no need for foul language and name calling. You can call me thin-skinned, but it’s rediculous that the negative and antagonistic behaviour of a few people can be totally ignored by the administration here at EF while those that honestly wish to discuss a situation or voice the opinion on it are silenced.

The complete and total apathy by the the EF administration to address the issue is sad. I felt this was a place where avid PE players could be equal and post their opinions without having to worry about the petty childish junk of others - those sorts of things USED to be handled swiftly, but not any longer. Instead a blind eye is turned to those folks that continue to post very little except negative comments and belittling one-liners, while the rest are silenced.

Lock my account if you wish MindBuster. I see no reason for it to remain. There is absolutely NO value for me in EF any longer. If I should decide to contine playing PE - which I doubt - then I will find my information and discussione on PE elsewhere. To me EF is just like EP now, useless.

Thanks for the time here, it was fun - but no longer.

Trakkur out.

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Some sad news and a request for help.

Some folks may have noticed I’ve begun posting lightly again. Not that it really matters, but I’m an addict to PE and have nobody to talk to about it when I’m at work..so you folks (For better or worse) are it.

Don’t worry, my postings will be minimal and I won’t bother to respond to goadings by the small minded trolls. If I feel like commenting on something I will, regardless of the topic.

Besides I simply have to talk now to get something off my chest before I burst.


I’ve had a tragedy in my family this past weekend, my wife’s grandmother passed away yesterday during hip replacement surgery. A rather routine surgery…but not for an 87 yr old with less the stellar health..and a pace maker.

The damned doctors had told her and my wife’s family on Friday that she wasn’t a candidate for surgery due to her heart condition and other medical factors (One technician said something to the effect that operating on her would be akin to euthanasia fro someone in her health), but Saturday they were singing a different tune. Now they said that the technician overreacted and the blood flow through her heart wouldn’t be as bad as feared and she would be fine. Against the better judgement of some family members the surgery went through as planned..with disasterous results and she died on the OR table after several attempts to resuscitate.

I truly believe that it was her time and wish to pass on. She had been preparing for a few weeks/months as if she knew. Any “inheritance” was already doled out to family members last Christmas over their objections and concerns, she spent the last year of her life straightening her affairs, sharing recipes and belongings with loved ones, making tapes for her young great-grandchildren, etc. We all feared this was coming. Her health had been declining for a few years with several trips to the hospital and nursing homes for hospice care after surgeries and falls. This last one was the final straw as she fell down a short flight of stairs and broke her hip.

While in the hospital after the fall she refused to eat or obey doctor’s requests. Her pain was so great that they had to use strong medication on her which caused her become dellirious on several occasions and rip out her IV’s. In the end I feel she had given up her struggle with life and gave up. She had talked for a while about how sad she was to be the only one of her family left including close friends…sadly her husband of over 60 years (Himself in failing health) is left alone now..and we fear he’ll follow shortly.

My wife is distraught over the loss since she was the first grand child and VERY close to her grandmother. In fact we purchased our present house almost solely to be close to her family (We live less then a mile from her grandmother’s house and most other family members are not further away.) - but what pains us the most (And brings tears to my eyes now as I type this) is the fact that this lovely women will never be around to see our 4 1/2 yr old daughter (Who shares a name with her great-grandmother) grow up. True one can never be sure how long family members will be around..but we had hoped our daughter would know her longer then 4 1/2 years. :frowning:

How does one tell a 4 1/2 yr old child that they will never see their great-grandmother again…one that you saw nearly every day of your life..and certainly more in the last 2 years then anyone else?

We’re heart-broken over this loss and have no idea at all in how to deal with it, much less how to cope with telling our daughter. What do we say? How do we explain it? Do we allow her to attend any of the viewings/funeral? We have no idea what to do..on one hand I fear she’ll be so distraught that she’ll affect everyone else if we bring her, but then what will she say and how will she act when she learns it and realizes we never let her see or be with her family? This is a very smart and perceptive child that has some seperation issues even now when one of us go out to run errands sometimes…what do we do? :confused:

Any help or words of advice that you folks can supply would be useful. My thanks.

Trakkur’s Diary Entry - 10-21-05

Hi again,

Well it’s done, the wake and funeral was the past two days and it’s been brutally hard to handle.

I’m not a very emotional person, but this has broken my heart and made me cry more then I’ve ever cried in my life. My nose and eyes hurt, and my headache simply won’t go away. But what’s worse is we told our daughter last night that her Great-Grandmother was very ill and died so we won’t be seeing her any more except in our memories and hearts.

Let me tell you, I’d much rather have all of my limbs chopped off and my body fed to a hungry animal then to ever take part on this type of conversation again…after we told her she looked at us and said, “Oh, I’m really going to miss her.” and then started crying - wait, sobbing is a more appropriate statement. :frowning: Of course this started us off, and my wife quickly turned the subject to something else fun for our daughter so we could ease our pain.

Later she proved the true innocence of children to me when she said, without any prompting or prior discussion, “We’re going to still go and see Pop-Pop (Her great-grandfather) still, right?” - then wanted to know how she can still see and talk to her Gramma Rose. We explained about dreams and heaven a little (Even though we’re not very religious people) and how she could now always talk to her whenever she wanted. Of course she’s only four and a half years old so who can be sure how she’ll handle this and what she’ll remember - but we’ve always had pictures of Gramma Rose around the house alot, so it’s highly unlikely she’ll ever forget. When she’s older we plan on giving her a locket that was made for her and contains a little bit of Gramma Rose’s ashes.

Sad times indeed my friends. I’m not at ALL suited for this stuff having never really dealt with it except for the death of my paternal Grandmother last year - whom I never really saw in my life very often so didn’t feel the same. The only other time was 27 years ago with my maternal Great-Grandfather died, and I was only 12 so while I was aware it never really sunk in. It’s damn hard…it’s 6 days since I heard and I just can’t stop crying over it. My eyes and nose hurt so bad, and I keep seeing her face and hearing her voice in my mind. I can’t even talk about her or think without breaknig down. I suppose this is what a broken heart really feels like. :frowning: I can’t wait for the pain to subside.

Yet another visit from the Angel of Death…a furry one this time.

Damn it! What’s going on? Did I wrong someone in another life and they’ve decided NOW is the time to come back and get even?

Sure, it’s not the same thing (In any way, shape or form) as when my wife’s grandmother died..but it still kinda hurts all the same.

With all of the craziness of the past 2 weeks we haven’t really paid all that much attention to our cats, sure we’ve still fed them, made sure the had water and changed the litter - but no real interaction between us. We have (had) 4 and each one is of course different, and 2 of them tend to be loners and don’t come to us or the other cats all that much.

Last night I came home from work and had a nagging feeling that I should check on them all closely just to make sure everything was fine. I found Shadow, one of the loners, in the basement laying down on our couch which he has spent a fair amount of time on ever since we moved it down there about 6 months ago. He’s skittish and normally moves away or reacts to you when you enter a room since he was abused before we adopted him 10 years ago. Unfortunately this time he only meowed at me in a very different voice then normal and didn’t move away, instead he did his best to try and roll away from me - when in the past he used to stand up and bolt off.

Well I knew right away something was wrong, but didn’t expect to touch him and feel his spine and ribs so clearly defined. Only a few days previous I had sat on the couch with him (A rare occurence) petting him, not feeling anything like this at all. He was wasted away to nothing. We tried to get him to eat some wet food but all he would do was lick the liquid.

A trip to the vet (My sister-in-law) showed that he had nothing in his stomache at all, and he hadn’t probably eaten anything in a few days at least. With 4 cats that all eat from a couple community food dishes, and no real way to segregate them I’m sure you can see there is no real way to check this sort of thing.

Sadly he was laboring to breathe, wasn’t moving much at all, and was making very odd sounds so we made the decision to ease his pain and put him down this afternoon.

Needless to say my wife is heart-broken again, and I’m sure our daughter will be as well - which will only bring back everything else that happened with Gramma Rose.

Dang it. :frowning:


On a semi-lighter note if anyone has someone or something that they would like to get rid of, please send them to live with us and be a part of our family. We seem to have a knack for it lately. :frowning: